well,
jason is finally done harvest - he might custom combine for a guy next week, but that's it. now he has a
ton of grain to get rid of.
so, he took the boys to the farm this morning and i get to have a coffee, some banana bread (i know, i used
to gag at the sight of a banana) and spend some time on the computer. nice.
i was watching oprah yesterday and there was the author of the book 'a million little pieces' which i now want
to read. oprah has a way of making you want to do what she is doing. this author was addicted to alcohol and
drugs and said that during his rehab he went with the motto 'hold on' he says that every addiction, whether it
be food, chemical, or alcohol, is emotional and that if you are feeling an emotion it will make you want a quick fix to make the emotion go away, but if you can just hold on through that emotion, you can conquer your addictions.
so mine is food - ya - and when i'm bored, lonely, thinking i either had a crappy day or a good day and wanting a reward - i go for the halloween candy or a pepsi (ya, it's pepsi now)
so now i'm trying to 'hold on' we'll see how that goes.
he also said that when he was little, he would watch his parents at parties and notice that when they drank, they would become happy - so he started to link drinking to being happy. makes me wonder how many little kids out there are recieving the wrong message - that drinking leads to happiness. kids can pick up on things like that at such a young age.
well, gotta go do some mom work - iron, vacuum, dust - and then reward myself with some halloween candy!!

brandon is going to be playing hockey this winter - we'll see how that goes. he is going to be on a pre-intitiation team (probably spelt that wrong) that is sorta like when your boyfriend gives you a pre-promise ring!!
anyways, we're pumped about it. i think it's a league where they tape a stick to their arm and they all push a chair around!
jason wants to fill our quanset up with water to make a rink... sounds like a foolproof idea to me.
ethan can throw a full size football up into the air and catch it... something i still struggle with.
well, i have to go cook a meal for the men in the field (me and martha)
i thought today, here i used to want to be a lawyer and now i clean, do laundry, cook, clean and nag. what has my life come too!?! they say that being a mom is the hardest job... it's because it's a constant battle to stay sane. jason says it's the highest calling a woman could have (he just wants me to make a good supper)
last night two hunters from utah stopped in... we live on a farm and no one 'stops in'... so of course i met them at the door with a gun. it's so wierd that just 6 years after being in college i am talking to hunters about duck and geese flight patterns and am showing off my husband's dead deer head while he is out killing another helpless animal that i will have to eat!! crazy what you will do when you fall helplessly in love.

my kids are insane!!!

ethan is my youngest and he has these big brown eyes that he knows how to use. we usually start the morning with him crying, then i try to bring him to my bed, then he usually hits me with his huge melon and we get up. then he throws most of his breakfast on the floor or hides it under his tray. the rest of the day is a struggle for power between him and I - and he is the one with the big brown eyes so you can guess who wins that battle.

today brandon was at a buddy's house and when i went to pick him up, he yelled at me, hid under a bench, ran away from the car, and then was crying so hard on the way home he threw up in the car. GREAT!! i put him in his bedroom and called jason at the farm and told him that when he got home, he had to think of a good punishment because i just wanted to strangle him!! i think the Lord was helping me to stay calm and not go into the room! i was so humiliated because every mom wants to think that they have things under control, but i don't and i fail and it's just a day by day journey i guess.

i was on the internet looking for hotels in vancouver to go and visit jason's sister angie and mike and their two kids, but then i got distracted by cruise vacations in the bahamas... oops!!

so long,...

ok... this is what jenny is doing and i wanted to be able to comment on her blog, so i had to open one and here it is. i thought i'd try it, but the last successful diary i had was when i was dating jason and that is just so embarrassing that i don't know why i am doing this.
something on my mind over thanksgiving and during harvest here is everyone thinks that they are the busiest person on the earth and that no one has a tougher life than they do - including myself.
i'm trying to figure out how to tell people what's happening in your life without sounding like you are the only one with a life.
well, i have to go, have to make supper for 5 men for tomorrow night because i have to take two kids to a wedding by myself and then clean a 2000 square foot house that has four sinks that my husband finds a way to shave in every one!! (see, i don't think i'm busy!)