afraid of the wind... anyone else? very, very afraid. both my boys are sick today, it's very windy, and jason is leaving tonight to play hockey... i'm already anticipating being afraid. i know, get over it, but this fear of wind has been with me ever since as a young gal i watched that horrible movie twister - brutal.

anyways, had a very exciting experience with my eldest, brandon, at his little 'canskate' practice. he skated by himself across the width of the rink!! very exciting.

i just had my first basketball practice yesterday - sr girls - and boy was it fun. and embarrassing. of course i'm like the fat mom there trying to run with the girls because i need to loose the baby fat. i would tell them to run say an eight (eight lengths of the gym) and i would jump in for the last four or two and they would all still beat me... after which i would yell at all of them " who here has had two babies? i didn't think so... i'll talk to you after you give up your body for two snotty nosed boys!!!" and then, during any drill if i was demonstrating something and messed up, i'd just say "two babies!!!" i'm sure they all don't think i'm pathetic. i just like to try to inspire in my coaching role!!

talk to you later...

if i could have my dream occupation (other than this dream that i'm living in as we speak!!)... definitely like a pastry chef or some sort of chef at a nice restaurant. love to bake. it's a little embarrassing because my only audience today was ethan and i had to bribe him with smarties to watch me bake. i put all the ingredients into little glass containers and then told him how to make the world's best oatmeal cookie!! he then started hitting me with a wooden spoon.

i also find that jason never can complement me enough on my baking or cooking!! poor jason... i know you are all thinking it. he and my brother ryan and brandon came home after watching a football game and i had clam chowder, carrot cake, cookies and surprise spread for them and jason might have said thank you twice... i told him ten times would be acceptable!! poor jason!

if i could have my dream occupation (other than this dream that i'm living in as we speak!!)... definitely like a pastry chef or some sort of chef at a nice restaurant. love to bake. it's a little embarrassing because my only audience today was ethan and i had to bribe him with smarties to watch me bake. i put all the ingredients into little glass containers and then told him how to make the world's best oatmeal cookie!! he then started hitting me with a wooden spoon.

i also find that jason never can complement me enough on my baking or cooking!! poor jason... i know you are all thinking it. he and my brother ryan and brandon came home after watching a football game and i had clam chowder, carrot cake, cookies and surprise spread for them and jason might have said thank you twice... i told him ten times would be acceptable!! poor jason!

ok, so jason went hunting the great 'moose' and i'm stuck at home with two boys for four days. and i'm still up at quarter to twelve, just putting the final 'touches' on my ladies meeting agenda for tomorrow night. yes, i'm the kelfield ladies group president... need i say more. we're doing the cs lewis book mere christianity - amazing. just reading about love being an act of the will, not a feeling, which is really good to read when your husband leaves you for a moose for four days.
so, my last blog (jacqui loves it when i say that word) was about how your past affects you so much, but i just learnt at sunday school today that "you are not a product of your past, but a product of Christ's work done for you on the cross" ok, so that means we need to start our thinking at the cross i guess.
i didn't feel like i'd win any awards on motherhood today - when jason was leaving church today to go hunting, i got like this panic attack, kinda started into a pretty horrible crying session, and quickly grabbed my kid's from my mother-in-law, bribing them both with halloween candy, and left the church bawling!! i'm sure that wasn't at all scary for my three year old and one year old boys!! oh well, i have to keep thinking that God gave me kids for a reason, not just as some cruel joke to show how inadiquate i am.
better go, this could be one ugly mother dropping her kid off at playschool in the morning. it's yellow day - very exciting, i'm thinking about putting on candice's bridesmaid dress to drop him off - i'll think a little more about that.
HOORAY FOR THE SAN DIEGO CHARGERS but boo for my poor PACKERS

when you live somewhere, no matter how big or small, i think you sorta start believing that your way of life is 'normal' or the right way, but it's always good to see other ways of life, get out of your own situation for awhile, so you can learn new things.
i went to three hills and calgary this weekend and, man, city life is different. just so many young people without kids and always on the go. staying at home for an entire day would probably send someone to the nut house, where i can stay home for 2-3 days without venturing out of my yard.
it was interesting though, because i do believe still that there is a difference between male and female - talking to my friend stacy - and it's undeniable that the way you are raised affects who you are, now matter what!!
women have been raised to see their dad's protecting and taking care of their moms and men have been raised seeing their dad's provide and protect. it's in your brain. BUT i do know that jason does alot of things he didn't grow up with, so change is possible, but it's just that, CHANGE. a man is not naturally going to clean up around the house or make a meal and a woman doesn't want to take the garabage out or scrape the windsheild or unclog the sewer. these things can change b/c jason does get up the kids in the night or change the odd diaper, but it hasn't happened naturally - only with nagging in the beginning!! it just made me think to not be upset that jason doesn't want to to "womanly' thinks naturally and to appreciate the change he's been willing to undergo.